Where's my phone call Sir?

Tonight will be the third day of not hearing from my husband. I know it has only been 3 days when it could be a lot longer, but before r&r he was able to call much more so when I don't hear from him in days....I start to worry a little. I can't help it. I don't know whats going on over there, so my mind starts to wonder. I guess thats normal. I mean, at least other wives tell me they do the same thing after long periods with no contact. I worry about him a lot, I can't wait to be done with this deployment and not have to worry about officers in uniform showing up at my door. Deployment is worrying about him every second of everyday for 12 months straight. I know my husband is very good at his job, but that doesn't mean I don't worry for him. But I know that I can't let my mind go there, I can't allow myself to think of the negative because I have several months still to go and I will drive myself crazy if I think about it.

So, that means distracting myself. It means keeping myself busy so I don't even have time to think about how long its been since our last phone call. It means continuing my hobbies. Painting more. Spending more time with friends. Watching movies. And definatly continuing my workout plans.

I have been doing well so far with my diet and working out. I just have to make sure that I stick to it. The last 2 days I have been using a Jillian Michaels workout called "30 days shred (level 2).' It says you can lose up to 20 lbs in 30 days doing a 20 min workout everyday. Well, I think thats a little crazy. I mean, 20 lbs!!!! In 30 days!!! So, I decided to try it to see how many pounds I can lose in 30 days, because knowing MY body it won't be 20lbs. But even if I can lose 10, how could I be mad with that?

Well, its day 2 and oh my God! My whole body hurts. The thing with Jillian Michael's is....she loves to workout every part of your body during her workouts. So, in 20 minutes I have worked out my arm's, my shoulder's, my abs, my legs and my butt. =)

Yesterday, I didn't feel too sore but today I really feel it. When I do anything with my arms they hurt. I don't want to laugh or sneeze because I'm afraid of the pain it will cause my abs. And don't even get me started on walking up the stairs to my Apt today. Ouch. I expect tomorrow won't be much fun. Trying to keep up with her when my whole body is screaming at me "F**k you!" Oh well, I know the results at the end of 30 days will make me more motivated to continue. My goal is 2 lbs a week and I think this week I will accomplish that.

But remember....
Stay positive. Life is beautiful.

God, do I miss him!