Day One: The last half

So, it begins. I dropped my husband off at the airport today, totally expecting to make it through the goodbye in one piece. I made it to the airport, kissed him goodbye, drove off and not a minute down the road....I felt the first tear stream down my face. I was kind of surprised. I wasn't expecting it. The end of R&R marks the halfway point and I thought saying goodbye this time would be easier, especially knowing the next time he's here, it will be for good. Okay, well its never really for good exactly. Marrying a grunt, I know he will always leave. I may get him home for a year or so if I'm lucky, until he leaves again. I don't like to say its "what I signed up for," because I didn't sign up for this, my husband did. But I did know that the military is his career when I met him and I know infantry is his passion....so that comes with multiple deployments. But I love my husband and I could not be more proud of him.

I will just need to keep myself as busy as I can for the last half of this. I started the rest of my morning, after dropping off my husband, with making myself a breakfast sandwich. Which I have to say was pretty good and if you know me, you know I'm not really all that great in the kitchen. After breakfast, I went to the gym after some time away, it was a good way to bring up my spirit a little. Plus, it felt good to be in the gym again. My goal for the rest of this deployment is to try and lose 2 lbs a week at least. If I can keep that up and lose at least 2 lbs a week, I could lose 30 lbs or more before he comes home. And 2 lbs doesn't seem too out of reach, it sounds very doable.

I need to get in the habit of going to the gym or using a workout video everyday. Even if I only do 30 mins of cardio. I need to do something, everyday. The hard part for me is consistancy, I can diet and excercise for some time, a week or more and then I stop. Heck I did p90x and stopped after day 70. Aye! Although I have to say by that point I was very satisfied with my results. But I can't do that anymore. I want to surprise my husband when he comes home and not only that, but I have our wedding in Sept. And although I still have awhile before that, I need to start now. I'm hoping that after awhile, I will just be in the routine and make it a habit. I got a good start today, but I will need to push myself when I get to the point where I want to stop or when I start to let this deployment get to me again.

Okay, time to make a snack. I'm thinking homemade salsa and whole grain chips. Yum.
Stay positive......life is beautiful.