Ok, this girl needs to find a job. Quitting my job was really not what I wanted, but there was no way I could have continued to work there. I have never in my life felt so much tension and complete disrespect. And I think that when you wake up in the morning, you should want to go to work. I dreaded going and not because of the actual job I was doing, but because I dreaded being around my boss. I still just don't understand how someone can be that mean for no reason. And I could not stand the way she talked to the children. I mean, at one point we had a child who was dropped off in the morning crying because his mom had just left and she tells the boy "Suck it up and stop crying." He was four! Four! And she is the director of this school?
My friend still works there and has told me that things are only getting worse there since I left. In fact, she told me that when she was talking to another co-worker she found out that before I started working there they had 3 other teachers quit without notice just prior to me being hired. And in the short 3 or so months I worked there, we lost 3 employees.
I guess the 2 of the ladies that work the front office actually confronted the director and told her to be nicer. But still that didn't help for long, a parent took her daughter out of the school and told my ex-boss to her face, "Your mean." I hope that one day she realizes just how mean she is and that she realizes that her attitude is the reason employees keep quitting on her. No one wants to work in that kind of environment. Its sad because, life is short and its not a good way to live when your always so mean to other people. It reminds me what my middle school's motto was: "Attitude is everything." I didn't realize just how true that is until I worked at that school. If anything, that is what I took away from that experience.
Anyway, I need to find a job soon. My husband is deployed and working hard, and between paying bills and paying off debt, we are not saving as much as either one of us had hoped. If I can find a job at least I can put more towards saving.
I have to say I'm a little scared though after this experience. But hopefully I can find something soon.
In good news, I just looked at my DOM. We are getting closer girls!!!
Deployment doesn't have anything on us.....We got this!!
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Don't lose hope
Oh man has it been a long time since my last post. 16 days to be.....lying....17 days to be exact. So I said I would be honest when it comes to my weigh loss and I keep my promises. Before my California trip I had lost 7 lbs in about 2 weeks. My first week in California I was able to workout pretty much everyday, but the second week when we got back to my parents house I was not able to workout as much. I'm not a runner and I did not have access to a gym, but I tried sticking to my diet as best I could.
But upon returning to Colorado I was frusterated to learn that I had gained it all back. All 7 lbs. But at least I didn't gain more than my starting weight, I guess that could be the silver lining there.....that is if you look really hard for it.
But I told myself, that I was not going to allow that gain back get to me. Although as frusterating as it is, I don't want to get side tracked and stop my weightloss journey.
I had a friend tell me not to look at it as a "diet" and to allow myself to "cheat" just a little but only every so often. She told me if I look at it as I'm on a diet and I limit what I can eat and I don't allow myself to have a cheat time, then I will fall back into my old ways. The way she had said it to me, it made sense. So I decided to not completely limit myself, but instead just to use moderation AND to eat as healthy as I can. But to not forget that i can "cheat" a little, just as long as I do in moderation. Small "cheats" if you will.
I'm starting my slimquick pills again. Even though I wanted to lose weight without using diet pills, I think I need a jump start. Something to help give me a little push, but I defineatly don't want to rely on pills to help me lose weight. But I think sometimes, especially with knowing what weight I am starting at, I may need a little help. More so because we have set a wedding date and my time period to lose weight has been shortened.
Well, I had always thought my due date for my weight loss was my husbands homecoming, which in a way it is. I want to lose a good amount of weight and get more toned by the time he gets home. But now I need to lose about 3 inches off my waist which is my main trouble area. When I was in California, I tried on my wedding dress and I know what I need to do to fit in it better. We have set a date for June 30th, 2012.
So, now I'm in a time crunch to lose enough weigh before my wedding. I'm not giving myself a goal weight, because it doesn't matter the weight on the scale. It just matters what I look like, how I feel and that I fit in my dress. Ok, techinically I fit into it, but I want to lose weight to look better in it. But also to lose weight to feel better, healthier. Plus, after working out tonight....I know that even on the worst most lonely nights of this deployment....working out ALWAYS makes you feel better. Guarenteed. Remember that ladies, on the days you feel like you can possibly get out of bed....get up...workout....and I know you will feel better and stronger. =)
Now, on to a different subject. I FINALLY enrolled Lily into dog training. Its way overdue thats for sure. She is now 11 months old and has had no puppy training whats-so-ever. That was a mistake on my part. I should have enrolled her months ago. Now, she is crazy puppy and I swear I think she has ADD. No, really, I think she does. When I take her out to go potty, she will sniff everything and wonder around as much as she can anyway since I have her on a leash. She gets so distracted by anything, even a moving leaf that she won't go. I know probably tmi, but seriously she is driving me CRAZY! Literally one time she was about to go and someone walked outside and she STOPPED. Oh my lord.
But today I took her to the dog park. Hoping we could stay later today, because yesterday it was so cold I couldn't stand out there. I knew once I could no longer feel my legs....it was time to go home. So, today I was hoping we could stay there for more than 15 minutes. I want her to run around and get her energy out, because then she's not such a pain in my butt for the rest of the day.
But today, she was running around with another dog. Then the owner went to her car to get a bowl. She put some water in it for her dog to drink. I saw Lily run toward the gate opening. I walked over to make sure Lily wouldn't run out or bother her. But I didn't get there in time. The lady opened the gate with the bowl in one hand, she held it up but to close to her chest and...here comes Lily....she jumped on her and there goes the water....all over the front of her sweatshirt. I wanted to shoot Lily. I knew the whole jumping thing is a problem with her, but she mostly saves that for me. How lucky am I?
I told the woman I was so sorry. She said it was ok, but her face said it all. She looked so pissed. So I chased after Lily, got her on the leash and took her home. I immediatly called the dog training school and signed her up. Its funny, I can handle a toddler....tantrums, crying, screaming, dipaers...you name it.....BUT....I have no idea how to handle a hyper puppy. I joked with my husband that I would take a child any day over this dog. As much as I love her, she is SO much work. Hopefully, training will help her because at this point I think it will be a long time before we can have children. We have talked about starting after few months after he gets home, but theres no way I could handle a child and Lily. Not to mention I don't trust her with small children. She just gets to excited and I would be afraid of her jumping and knocking the child down.
Well, that is all for today. Its been a busy and productive day and I am tired.
Homecoming is getting closer and closer.....I swear I can see the finish line now. 2012....has given me so much hope. I know now how much closer I am to having my husband back. How close I am to having the other half of my heart home.
Life is beautiful <3
But upon returning to Colorado I was frusterated to learn that I had gained it all back. All 7 lbs. But at least I didn't gain more than my starting weight, I guess that could be the silver lining there.....that is if you look really hard for it.
But I told myself, that I was not going to allow that gain back get to me. Although as frusterating as it is, I don't want to get side tracked and stop my weightloss journey.
I had a friend tell me not to look at it as a "diet" and to allow myself to "cheat" just a little but only every so often. She told me if I look at it as I'm on a diet and I limit what I can eat and I don't allow myself to have a cheat time, then I will fall back into my old ways. The way she had said it to me, it made sense. So I decided to not completely limit myself, but instead just to use moderation AND to eat as healthy as I can. But to not forget that i can "cheat" a little, just as long as I do in moderation. Small "cheats" if you will.
I'm starting my slimquick pills again. Even though I wanted to lose weight without using diet pills, I think I need a jump start. Something to help give me a little push, but I defineatly don't want to rely on pills to help me lose weight. But I think sometimes, especially with knowing what weight I am starting at, I may need a little help. More so because we have set a wedding date and my time period to lose weight has been shortened.
Well, I had always thought my due date for my weight loss was my husbands homecoming, which in a way it is. I want to lose a good amount of weight and get more toned by the time he gets home. But now I need to lose about 3 inches off my waist which is my main trouble area. When I was in California, I tried on my wedding dress and I know what I need to do to fit in it better. We have set a date for June 30th, 2012.
So, now I'm in a time crunch to lose enough weigh before my wedding. I'm not giving myself a goal weight, because it doesn't matter the weight on the scale. It just matters what I look like, how I feel and that I fit in my dress. Ok, techinically I fit into it, but I want to lose weight to look better in it. But also to lose weight to feel better, healthier. Plus, after working out tonight....I know that even on the worst most lonely nights of this deployment....working out ALWAYS makes you feel better. Guarenteed. Remember that ladies, on the days you feel like you can possibly get out of bed....get up...workout....and I know you will feel better and stronger. =)
Now, on to a different subject. I FINALLY enrolled Lily into dog training. Its way overdue thats for sure. She is now 11 months old and has had no puppy training whats-so-ever. That was a mistake on my part. I should have enrolled her months ago. Now, she is crazy puppy and I swear I think she has ADD. No, really, I think she does. When I take her out to go potty, she will sniff everything and wonder around as much as she can anyway since I have her on a leash. She gets so distracted by anything, even a moving leaf that she won't go. I know probably tmi, but seriously she is driving me CRAZY! Literally one time she was about to go and someone walked outside and she STOPPED. Oh my lord.
But today I took her to the dog park. Hoping we could stay later today, because yesterday it was so cold I couldn't stand out there. I knew once I could no longer feel my legs....it was time to go home. So, today I was hoping we could stay there for more than 15 minutes. I want her to run around and get her energy out, because then she's not such a pain in my butt for the rest of the day.
But today, she was running around with another dog. Then the owner went to her car to get a bowl. She put some water in it for her dog to drink. I saw Lily run toward the gate opening. I walked over to make sure Lily wouldn't run out or bother her. But I didn't get there in time. The lady opened the gate with the bowl in one hand, she held it up but to close to her chest and...here comes Lily....she jumped on her and there goes the water....all over the front of her sweatshirt. I wanted to shoot Lily. I knew the whole jumping thing is a problem with her, but she mostly saves that for me. How lucky am I?
I told the woman I was so sorry. She said it was ok, but her face said it all. She looked so pissed. So I chased after Lily, got her on the leash and took her home. I immediatly called the dog training school and signed her up. Its funny, I can handle a toddler....tantrums, crying, screaming, dipaers...you name it.....BUT....I have no idea how to handle a hyper puppy. I joked with my husband that I would take a child any day over this dog. As much as I love her, she is SO much work. Hopefully, training will help her because at this point I think it will be a long time before we can have children. We have talked about starting after few months after he gets home, but theres no way I could handle a child and Lily. Not to mention I don't trust her with small children. She just gets to excited and I would be afraid of her jumping and knocking the child down.
Well, that is all for today. Its been a busy and productive day and I am tired.
Homecoming is getting closer and closer.....I swear I can see the finish line now. 2012....has given me so much hope. I know now how much closer I am to having my husband back. How close I am to having the other half of my heart home.
Life is beautiful <3
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Happy New Year!
So its finally 2012 and I can offically say that my husband is coming home this year!
I got a little emotional when the ball dropped on New Year's Eve, because I knew it was a milestone in this deployment. Before I left for California I told myself that at the end of that trip, it would be 2012 and that meant we only had X many more months left of this deployment. I had prepared myself to know just how close we are to the end, by making the end of my California trip as a big marker...or milestone if you will...in this deployment.
This may sound crazy but the start of 2012 has given me strength. It has given me hope. I feel like these next few months are going to fly by, especially since I have a wedding to plan, p90x to finish, and a job to find. Lots to do to keep me busy. I'm getting so excited for homecoming!!!
2011 brought a lot of changes for me. News of a deployment that we were not expecting, getting married, moving to Colorado, starting our married life together, finding a place of our own, getting a puppy our little Lily, sending my husband off to Afghanistan, getting a job, then losing a job, welcoming my husband home for r&r, making new friends. 2011 was a good year but I'm looking forward to what 2012 will bring us. A wedding, hopefully a new job for me, starting school again, a HOMECOMING and who knows maybe an addition to our little family....thats still up in the air though.
Happy 2012 everyone! I hope this year brings peace, love and much happiness to all of you!!!
I got a little emotional when the ball dropped on New Year's Eve, because I knew it was a milestone in this deployment. Before I left for California I told myself that at the end of that trip, it would be 2012 and that meant we only had X many more months left of this deployment. I had prepared myself to know just how close we are to the end, by making the end of my California trip as a big marker...or milestone if you will...in this deployment.
This may sound crazy but the start of 2012 has given me strength. It has given me hope. I feel like these next few months are going to fly by, especially since I have a wedding to plan, p90x to finish, and a job to find. Lots to do to keep me busy. I'm getting so excited for homecoming!!!
2011 brought a lot of changes for me. News of a deployment that we were not expecting, getting married, moving to Colorado, starting our married life together, finding a place of our own, getting a puppy our little Lily, sending my husband off to Afghanistan, getting a job, then losing a job, welcoming my husband home for r&r, making new friends. 2011 was a good year but I'm looking forward to what 2012 will bring us. A wedding, hopefully a new job for me, starting school again, a HOMECOMING and who knows maybe an addition to our little family....thats still up in the air though.
Happy 2012 everyone! I hope this year brings peace, love and much happiness to all of you!!!
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